My last real boyfriend was two years ago, and although I've been over him for quite some time; he apologized to me yesterday for all of the shittiness he brought to me, and it just feels good to have that closure from that part of my life.
You can't always get closure, so when it comes cherish it. The smallest "I'm sorry" brings so much baggage free from my heart, and it's lifted:
I was a terrible boyfriend, and it was weird because I could see myself doing all these really stupid things like not holding your hand and stuff and I didn't really know why I was doing it. You probably won't believe this but I really did like you. I think. See, I know that I was feeling some incredibly strong feelings towards you, and I think I assumed that meant I wanted to date you. But maybe I didn't examine my feelings closely enough because obviously dating you was not what I wanted to be doing. I don't know what else those feelings could have been, but I guess it wasn't what I thought it at first. I'm very sorry for how things happened, it wasn't what i wanted. I'm sorry that [Name] is your best friend. If I started liking someone you didn't know, that probably would've been easier for you.
This is a really weird apology, I know, but to finally hear the truth is just wonderful.
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